How was your week? I hope your winter world is warming (if you are in a winter world). I hope you found some joy and beauty. I hope you are well.
For me… a lil of the up… a lil of the down… and all the time we go round and round.
To Walk… And boy did I walk…. I walked and walked and walked… for between 20 minutes to 3.5 hrs each day.
Except for the day spent mostly in town and hey, I walked while I was in town… but I didn’t count it because… it was in spurts, not one big long walk.
The Result: All goodness flows from the walking. Especially the early morning walking. “Ummana Yummana… good good good!”
And…OK then… If you are such a supahstar ~ how the hell did you end up getting EATEN by the couch yesterday?
What happened to the rest of the week?
SHAKE IT OFF! SHAKE IT OFF!
The thing that is leaping out at me today is…. That the only thing I know for sure is that the world is an up and down type of place.
I wrote this in the Scrib this morning…
I feel so … downtrodden this winter. Like I managed to survive last winter with so much more… grace and ease than this winter. I had the job at the hospital. I was tired out ~ physically ~ but was I so sad? I can’t remember. I do remember that when Spring came, the news also came that I was blessed with the ability to work for a year. To focus and WORK on the new book…. and I have been, right? Right. But… This is where it has led me? To downright DEPRESSION? What the what???
Here’s the thing.
I have spent much time looking… inside myself this year.
I have spent much time [editted out some private bizness – see I HAVE private bizness – heh heh]
And mostly… I have spent the year trying to find my way through this book.
You have found your way through.
You have worked hard.
You may not feel like it this week but it is true.
The draft is nearing completion.
This is good.
Go work more.
That is all.
I want it all to come clear. And I want 2 seemingly different things.
1. I want the a-b-c-d-e of a well built, story ~ told clean and clear.
2. I want the wild magic and the deep truth.
I want a straight ahead, satisfying tale.
I want it to have humour and grace.
I don’t know why oh why oh why it takes me so freaking long to write these things.
I want them to come in months instead of YEARS.
But this has been your life, Pam. And this has been, and remains, your way of working.
And it is a good life, is it not?
Yes. It is.
It just means that …
…some days you walk to town and dance for joy on the ice because the work has gone so well.
….and some days you get eaten by the couch.
So it goes.
Just actually BELIEVE that I’m on the right/write track.
NEXT WEEK’S Playful EXPERIMENT:
A thing I’ve started doing off and on… a short evening Scrib just to round out the day.
What the heck – can’t hurt.
Be well my beauties!
Dream of planting seeds.
go easy ~p
In homage to Havi’s Friday Chickens over on the The Fluent Self — This is the place I review my week – in an attempt to track some things – like progress on my novel and… living intentionally. I shake out my week and lay it out. Let the hard burn off and the good sink in. Call it an experiment in paying attention.
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