Shake and Bake 65: The FishWish Edition

Shake and Bakes are my quarterly check-ins (CHICKENS!). They used to be weekly – but this year they are happening in line with the moon. I use these posts to … shake out the happenings of my work and my  life in general in an attempt to Shake of the bad and Bake in the good. It’s about … gratitude, paying attention and now..living by the moon.

~~o~~ PIKE Moon – 1st Quarter ~~o~~

I’m rolling in a bit behind schedule… should’ve done this post yesterday – but I got all busy with prep for the upcoming Pike Derby.

Yes, m’dears, it’s true.  I’m headed out tomorrow for a day on the ice with my fabulous Fishing Mentor, Diana, and we do indeed hope to catch “the big one!”

It is a new thing for me – the fishing.  I find myself happy to be in Diana’s company out in the world.  I also find myself incredibly happy to be able to bring home food to feed my family.  I garden… and now I fish.  It’s a brave new world.

I was vegetarian for a long while and I still lean towards a plant based diet.  But there is something about learning this skill that is feeding something deep within.  And I do think it is about being able to… provide… for my family.  For myself and the Raggedy Man.

I am grateful to my teacher and to the fish who come to me.

I am looking very much forward to the derby.  To the companionship of the day and to the challenge of luring in a wily old pike… to win riches… for there ARE riches to be won.  And I would also like to provide SOME CASH for my family.

So… wish us luck if you can.

~~o~~

Let’s shake out the last few days…

 Reviewing my Intentions for the New Moon

• Θ Earth
  Grounding – is taking the form of very basic and specific small steps forward as far as the WORK is concerned. These are feeling good. But I will admit there have been a few days of MISERY along the way.  Tiny steps are hard when I want to LEAP ahead.
• Φ Air
  The Deep breathes of clarity – are indeed helping.  Earlier in the week – the work was of the wild chaotic sort… and then settled into attempts to answer specific questions and now… now I am really breaking things apart… event by event and laying it all out to peruse.  And… I think this allowing air and space that is much needed.
• Χ Fire
  As for trusting the flame… working on it.  I do see sparks… I do.  And I will tend them.
• Ξ Water
  Eyes focused below the water.  I am chasing the big fish – and I am also noticing the beauty of the small ones.
• Ψ Spirit
  Shaky in the silence this week.  Running for input input input… running from silence again.  I see it.  I can shift it.

~~o~~

Shaking off The Hard

• Θ
  The weight of this bulk of words that… overwhelms me.  Until I remember that I need only take tiny bites.
• Φ
  Easily winded this week.  In life and while working.
• Χ
  Cold chills… cold days… longing for heat.
• Ξ 
  Lack of flow continues work wise – but… but… not EVERY day.
• Ψ
  Still finding the big picture RATHAW fuzzy as far as the book goes.  But I think it is coming into focus.

Baking in The GOOD

• Θ
  Found something solid in the book – foundation wise – and can work towards strengthening it.
• Φ
  The seemingly tedious work I’ve been doing today is opening up space and allowing me to see the air around the events of the story.  This probably sounds mad – but it is helping me find… the pattern… the road through…
• Χ
  Yes. Sparks. Thanking the story gods for the sparks.
• Ξ 
  Water flowing under ice. Pockets of air. Shadows glimpsed.
• Ψ
  I can see that I so easily slip into Misery when the work is not going well.  It isn’t even that the work is not going well. It is when I … run away from the work.
  • What truly needs baking in is… THE MISERY IS JUST PART OF THE DEAL – it is part of the creation.  It is something to be worked through.  And the only way through is – TO WORK. 
  • I know this, of course – but on and on and on and over and over I must re learn it.

~~o~~

Thanks for popping by.

Go easy ~p