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Shake and Bakes are my quarterly check-ins (CHICKENS!). I use these posts to … shake out the happenings of my work and my  life in general in an attempt to Shake off the bad and Bake in the good. It’s about … gratitude, paying attention and living by the moon. Much thanks to HAVI over at the Fluent Self for inspiration and to APRIL at Big Sky Astrology for her monthly Working with the Moon booklets.

~~o~~ FULL Leaf Turning Moon (in Pisces) ~~o~~

Wowza wowza – another full moon night….

Full Moon (P. Bustin)It’s been a “recovery” week for me.  The ole bod has been letting me know that all is not well in my universe.  Just as I was getting my wind back after the 3 Day Novel Contest, I got knocked down for a day (Thursday) with an earache and then on Friday – a strange new aching PAIN appeared in my lower back (right side)… it had me holding pretty STILL over the weekend, and is still there today.

I am listening to the body – resting and moving when it seems right.  And listening too for a deeper message.  This… body stopping… thing usually occurs when I have overdone things, stretched myself too thin.  I know that there will be folks out there going, “Well, it’s obviously that crazy 3Day Novel thing she does – it is just TOO MUCH.”  I hear ya, but I honestly don’t think that is what it is.  I think it is … farther down… and has more to do with emotions and Spirit than just physical strain.

I think it is something I need to work out in private, for now.

But… on a happier note….

huzzah hoorah!

I am insanely happy to report that the energy of the Full Moon got me back to work on the reVisions of Sanctuary.

I’m back in, with renewed determination and conviction that I WILL see this tale through to another completed draft before Christmas.

All waves of creative support gladly accepted.

Oh man, it felt good to dive back in.  It was disorienting for a few minutes, finding my way back in after this break, but I was soon humming away and find myself looking forward to my morning shift.

woot!

And on that note… Let us chicken…

~~o~~

The Hard:

  • Θ body – ouch ouch achey ouch.
  • Φ mind – spinny with all the “figuring out” of things that cannot be “figured”.
  • Χ Yes…. still feeling screamingly BEHIND on the work front as far as the book goes.
  • Ξ emotions – oh you…oh you tricky tricky emotions… I must learn to simply let others keep their own emotions… PUHleez.
  • Ψ And… realizing that last time I checked in, I mentioned that I was having a hard time sitting down to LISTEN and… well, look what good ole BODY did – slowed me right the hang down and gave me the time.  Yay. (note the sarcasm)

The Good:

  • Θ The body will always tell me the truth.
  • Φ The mind… though it sometimes seems that it is NOT TO BE TRUSTED… is in fine working order and if I don’t rush or obsess and circle circle circle… this mind o’ mine can help me sort through things.
  • Χ Today’s work – good and good and so very good to be back at it.
  • Ξ The emotions… they tell me things too.  I may not always listen… but I’m learning.
  • Ψ In the slowing, some time for gratitude and thanksgiving.

~~o~~

Habit/Practice we are currently playing with on Sea Change:

This is the second week of “Simple Living” Last week, we were reviewing and thinning out our commitments.  This week, we are looking at …. de-cluttering… again.

I haven’t really found my feet with this one.

In some ways, I’ve simplified my life a lot in the past couple of years.  Moving to the shack.  Stepping down from volunteer positions that, though incredibly worthy, took heaps of time and energy.  Bringing all of my creative focus into finishing this book.  Slowing down and taking the time to work on and with Spirit.  Cooking fresh, simple food for me and the Raggedy Man.  Tending house (as best I can).  Tending my people (as best I can).  Tending mySelf (as best I can).

And yet – I still often feel … like I don’t have enough time in the day.

Making me think that there is yet more simplifying to do.

There is deffo some de-cluttering to do… but, as I’ve said before – I hang my head in exhaustion at the very thought of it.

Let’s see what the moon would have me focus on this week….

And… ha ha — hee hee — it actually makes me smile.  Because here is something I CAN do….

Week of the FULL Moon – SOUTH – Χ (chi) fire – work – vision – will

  • Full to Last Quarter – highest energy, creativity, review, release.
  • At the Full Moon, we take a pause to review, readjust, and release anything that needs Letting Go.
  • I need to take a look at how this month’s practice/habit/intention is affecting/influencing my work and especially how I see my work.

Hmmm…. there is something really juicy here for me.

I keep coming back to the two things that happened right after I “finished” this year’s 4 directions3 Day Novel.  My compass necklace “broke” and I fell flat on my face in the mud, but was unharmed — and in fact, I laughed and laughed from my place on the ground.

I have a wonderful “online friend” named Diane (check out her beautiful blog – a focused journey) who visits here regularly and offers up the most lovely, thoughtful comments.  She got me thinking again about what these things could mean, and I came up with the following…

…As to the “broken” compass… I am taking it as a sign that this is a time to….reset my compass. I shall rebuild the necklace myself. Maybe adding a few beads of a different sort. Make it my own creation.

I like the sound of that.

Yeah…. a reset of my compass.  I can do that.

Instead of bashing away at this draft, I think I might try to … ease back a bit and let the tale lead me.

WAS I “bashing away?”  Maybe.  A bit.  Or at least that is what I have been INTENDING to do this week.

Get back in there and pound the thing into shape!  Force it into some shape that looks like … like what?

Like a “good” book.

Like a “well told” story.

Like something that will…. SELL.

The “let the characters tell you the story” method is usually how I work – but sometimes I forget – especially when it gets to this part of the process and it feels like it is taking me FOREVER to find the true story within all the words words words.  When, honestly, I just want to FINISH this project and move on.

I can lose faith.  In myself.  In the story.

And … I can fear that … this time, I am surely going to fall flat on my face.  Be exposed as a “no good” writer.  A fake.  A phony.  That it will stink.

So… what?

So what if it does stink?  I won’t die from it.

It sometimes feels like I will, but I won’t.  I can fall face first in the mud and come up laughing.  Just like I did Monday night.

This is a reminder.  Reset the compass.  And carry on.  Trust the stars to lead you safely home.

And if you fail…. get up, and keep going.

Yeah… that’s the ticket.

~~o~~

Ooop — my “screens off” alarm just chimed. And I’m actually going to LISTEN TO IT tonight.

Time to go read a book and get ready for bed, so that I can get to work bright and early.

Thanks for stopping by.

May your week be full of new creations, and “old” creations….blooming.

Go easy ~p

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