Last Quarter of Ice Coming In Moon.

Energy winding down… heading to Dark Moon resting time.

But, as the man says – No rest for the wicked.

The week whirled by me… with a speed hard to fathom.  Wrapping up with a few days offline in town – which was actually a nice rest – and…. The Saskatchewan Roughriders won the Grey Cup!  Huzzah huzzah huzzah.

Warms my prairie-girl heart.  I used to work in a concession booth for Rider games in the way-back.  Good times.

And now – we are home for a few days and then it is time to pack it all up and move to town.  Indoor plumbing here I come!

So… the doings took a hit this week.  AGAIN.  I will not whine, nor beat myself about the head… but here be the stats…

The Quick Chicken (The Doings that help me with the Being):

• Scribble:7/8
• Walk: 2/8
• Yoga:0/8
• Meditation:  2/8  ~ Whaaaaat?  eep.

…and…

• Writing Hours: 3/8 ~ longish shifts but WHAAAAAAT?
  

On an interesting front… I not only went offline for a couple of days – I also left behind my daily paper chicken thingy but… I somehow knew/remembered that today was the last quarter day of this moon – YAY.

And so … though I feel blank and rather… cranky… and it is already past 9pm and I really really REALLY just feel like watching some boob tube.. Here I am… doing the shaking and the baking.  Because it will help me sleep a slightly righteous sleep.  So many things “undone” this week.  But this done.  Woot.

Onward…

THE GNARBLE:

• Waves of emotion continuing to wash over me.
• Tiredness returning ~ must move…must move…must mooooove.
• Serious freaking FIGHT with myself to get my butt into the chair and write.
• Inability to find the right gift for one of my sweety-pants nephews.  LORDY this brought up much “I’m a bad aunt” shite….
  
• Serious fear around a piece of writing I’m working on.  Fear or Doubt.. or both.

THE SWEET N TASTY:

• Wednesday’s writing session – remember that? How awesome was it?  Super Duper Awesome.  I know this I know this I know this.
• Texting with my Sis – took all the sting out of the inability to find the danged gift and made me feel so so so so much better about what I bought in the end.  Texting is fun!
• Erasing a really really mean thing I was about to say about myself earlier in this post.  Way to not beat yourself up (too badly) when you are feeling down.
• And way to note that even though you are totally feeling tired and cranky and like a big ole loserface – you are HERE doing this THING that you very very much want to do each quarter.

The Thing That Needs Baking In MOST (What WORKED):

The thing that is always true and can never be reinforced enough – I ALWAYS “feel better” (mood wise and physically and even spiritually) when I WORK.  And once I get myself into the chair to work – the words always always flow and it is … a joy…. and a freakin’ RELIEF.

The ultimate goal being to work each day….

or at least 5 or 6 days outta 7

STEADY as SHE GOES – instead of BLITZING and feeling great for one day and shittay for four

Last Week’s Playful INTENTION…

To employ the listing and RE-listing method each morning when I make my “to do” list.  In an attempt to Listen to the inner promptings and follow them – or at least be aware of them and whether they are in conflict with external promptings.

How it went…

I did manage to do this a few times….it continues to work.

This Week’s Playful INTENTION…

This week will be a week of packing and moving and being discombobulated.  Let’s….

~EMBRACE the CHAOS~

Dive on in and take each day as it comes.  Report back on from the other side.

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Thanks for stopping by. Sorry to be a bit cranky-pants.

Here’s a song to take us through the CHAOS of the coming week….

Go easy ~p