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The most wonderful thing happened this morning.

English: Modern photograph taken on black and ...

English: Modern photograph taken on black and white film with a Mamiya C330f. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I’ve been sick all week.  Bad BAD cold.  Cough.  No energy.  Cough.  Much time in bed watching Dr. Who and … pretty much anything I could find.

Woke this morning …coughing.  Rolled out of bed …. coughing.  Turned on the coffee.  Made a fire …coughing.  Took coffee and crawled into the bunky-office to get on with the Scrib.

As I mentioned a few weeks ago, I’ve designed a sort of “form” thingy to do a bit of a daily chicken (check in).  A checking in and a checking out… and… a personal writ by hand Shake and Bake.  This was the first week I actually did the hand written Shake and Bake.

I am… rather astounded.  And once again in awe of our Miz Brooks (Havi that is).

See… I went into that bunk all… downtrodden and sad.

  • Didn’t want to face up to “a week wasted”
  • SO didn’t want to come on here and admit to a week wasted
  • Didn’t even want to write it out for MYSELF let alone share it with anyone

But I did it.

And lo and behold… my mood shifted HUGELY.  I’m not really sure how it works.  But it totally did.

Here’s the unadulterated S&B…. insightful notes added in Green  italics….

.The Quick Chicken (The Doings that help me with the Being):

  • Work on NIP: 1/7
  • Walks: 1/7
  • Meditation: 3/7
  • Guitar: 0/7
  • Yoga: 0/7

Wow.  that is bad News, eh?  I totally bombed on the doings front this week.  YUP.  And yet… I’m still here…. And still hopeful… that… “Today is another day.  This week is another week.”  I’ve nowhere to go but up, I’d say.

THIS WEEK’S EXPERIMENT:


Was to “receive faces” ala Rick Hanson’s JOTs.

The Result:

No.  I didn’t do it.  i tried to keep it in my mind when I was with M, or in town, but no go. It fell out my mind. I could only focus on staying upright and not coughing.  Weak.

So… Again…Head hanging fail.  I honestly meant to – but so did not succeed in remembering to do this.  Even with the sweet fella when he brought me bowl after bowl of tasty soup to soothe my throat.

Why?  I dunno.  But I did learn that … man…  I could use some work on THIS. 

Stop. Look. Be aware.  REALLY. 

It sounds so simple.  It allllll sounds so simple, right?

THE GNARBLY BITS of Mystery:

  • –  Wow I am sickshake
  • – Wow I am broke
  • -Wow

THE TASTY BITS:

bake

  • + M love
  • + Friend love
  • + Family love
  • + Roughty Chat and laugh laugh laugh
  • + a wise message from Ela pouring out in the Scrib.
  • And… sucky as it is, bleak as it has felt… I did manage to finish up course work for one MOOC and almost catch up on the other, and I did write a Letter of Support for a pal and I actually got back to work on Friday… Hey…. Yay – right?

The Thing that needs Baking In:

All will be well.  I believe this.

Hell… all IS mostly well – even in this sick dark place.  And here’s the big truth that needs baking in…. DOING THIS (meaning the S&B) HAS SHIFTED MY MOOD ENTIRELY.  I feel ready to greet the new week with a “Wheee!”  Havi is a genius.  I knew that.  But I really really GET it today.  I’m not entirely sure why it works but this is a good good thing to do.

It’s a springtime miracle!

NEXT WEEK’S Playful EXPERIMENT:

Breathing. Ha.

Serious….. um….????

OK. Begin again.

With the faces thing?  Yes but even more than that.  Begin again with what you know to do.  You do know.  Remember?

Pasting in the fantastic note that drifted in from Ela…. Uncut…because I have a feeling that this isn’t just a message for me.  It’s for someone out here in the sphere as well….

Listen Deary…

This is a dangerous time for you. There is much growth happening below the skin.  There is a deep change in motion and you WILL emerge.  You are emerging and it is a clear path you seek. A simple path. Do not get cluttered up.  You are doing well and more and more “things”  will fall away and what you need will shine clear and come easily to your hand.  You already know these things.  You do.

Move the body

Make music

Speak your truth

Eat live things

Love fiercely

That is all.

Simple.

That’s it.

Simple.

And so, with that, I leave you.  Wishing you a week full of beautiful creations and dreams of summer.

go easy, friends

~p

In homage to Havi’s Friday Chickens over on the The Fluent Self — This is the place I review my week – in an attempt to track some things – like progress on my novel and… living intentionally. I shake out my week and lay it out. Let the hard burn off and the good sink in. Call it an experiment in paying attention.

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